ok.. i sudden urge to write a meaningful entry after that once i saw van writing one.. hmm.. ok.. here it goes..~

i was quite a isolated child when i was young.. concealing all the problems and emotions in myself.. still remembering i didnt quite have very gd memories of my primary school life.. then added the problems i have at home really make me turn bad..

things didnt go well for mi in the first year of my sec sch life too.. i wasnt happy becoz i got in to a sch that was not on the list of my choices.. then i went in to the volleyball club as i knew my coach way before hand at the ice skating rink.. as my temper isnt good.. so i did not got along well with the others.. still remembering my bestie, chinnyi.. we got to get along only after a fight.. then we were put in to the same team.. she was a different girl.. she had a lot of friends and slowly i was introduced to some of them.. then slowly, yingmei, lawrence & binglong came which makes us always together.. and sec sch life seems to have turn for better...

the most enjoyable moment were during the 3rd & 4th yr.. got a new form teacher which really bond us all together.. ms wang.. she is a teacher u can nv imagine.. should i say she is a friend instead..? doin all those crazy things with us, hang out together, going chalet together, always there for us, letting us go her place for BBQ.. she even helped me to get to sec 4.. didnt really do well at sec 3 year-end exams.. nearly drop to NA becoz of English which i always manage to fail all the time.. she helped me to appeal and comfort me.. a retake was schedule and i passed.. hehex.. but then, we realised that she had been transferred to MOE HQ... sec 4 life without her was a bit disappointing.. but everyone still stays united.. =)

after the O level result released, i was sad.. i had failed maths and the courses for me were limited.. wanted to go SP a lot and take up designing course.. but failed.. i was enrolled in to Ngee ann poly which i have went for the Early Childhood Edu direct admission written test and got through it... feeling super reluctant coz all my friends will be going to SP and i was feeling super left out.. and this isnt really the course i wan.. but then i decide to go for it.. all alone..

first day of orientation.. i arrived alone and standing at a corner.. looking at everyone.. they all seems to know each other.. then went in to the lecture hall found a sit and there all by myself.. then a girl, huilin approached me asking if she can sit beside me.. my first fren! hahaha.. everyone wasnt realli bonded after the orientation.. it was only after school starts then they realised that i can be so noisy.. commenting i am totally different person now and then..

den came volleyball.. decided to join back coz i still have the passion for it.. then i realised fu kang.. a senior from Sembawang sec was there.. becoz we got the same coach.. there is constant going of each other sch for games.. went there all alone.. arrived there on the first day looking super blur.. didnt join them for usual routine too after trainings coz i really felt strange.. then from dunno when i started to join them.. after that once, i have nv miss it so far!!

friends started to come in.. and *poofs* we have a milky gang which consist of me(coconut milk), van(milk powder), ange(evapourated milk), crystal(condensed milk), xiu jun(skim milk), yan ping(soya bean milk), grace(chocolate milk), wei xuan(low fat milk), yen(fresh milk)... things were really fun with all of them.. want to treasure this milk family a lot a lot.. and they really mean a lot to me.. even my bestie could see that.. then slowly, after the VB camp, everyone bonded even more.. know more & more people in the club.. and we have a new milk-to-be member, SaSa!! strawberry..

when i first step into Ngee Ann, there is nuthing that wants to keep me from leaving.. i had signed up for retaking maths and the only thing on my mind was.. passed my maths this time and get out of here to SP for designing course.. however, as time goes by, i am hesitating whether i should leave if i manage to pass.. my class, volleyball, milk family.. i really cant bear.. and i will super miss every single of them.. all the fun times we have, secret missions, chilling, phone conferences, hanging out, all the concern & care.. well, jus have to take a step at a time i guess.. =D