sep 26th

met up with weiqi, chinnyi and shirlyn to go holland as chinnyi wanted her ice cream again so off we went there.. after eating went back to NP for training with them along.. sorta intro them to my school for training.. sry that the other side wasnt really welcoming and i wasnt there as i have to train the members.. so sry... but after that hope u all enjoyed playing with the members..

once again they have proved themselves how sickening they are huh? making people who come first time feel so unwelcome.. haix.. when can the problems that starts with them ends.. haix...

okok.. dun wan make my dear en en see my emo post anymore shall update wad i did for the weekends...

sat.. was supposed to meet the milkies in the afternoon to have lunch with ping before she set off to cambodia.. but it was canceled due to some reasons.. so i ask weiqi whether he wan to go for the sushi as he was asking mi on friday night, first outing since he come back from brunei.. so yup.. met him and boss at lot 1 to have our sushi.. it was dam packed and there were no seats, we decided to go play pool and come back later.. ok.. i have conclude that lot 1 K Pool is seriously thinking that air con is cheap and oning it at full blast like making it a place for polar bears.. lol.. was freaking cold inside and lot lot lot of pai kias... haix.. by 630pm we went back to the sushi place, continued to queue up for bout 15mins? before we got our seats.. hahahaha.. quite a lot of jokes happened inside..

yup.. ping, dunno whether u will read this or not.. have a safe trip alrights? hope you had fun over there.. it's a pity we cant meet up before u fly off on tues.. but all the best to you ya? miss ya.. shall make up to you when you come back ks? take good care of urself while at there..

sun
hmm.. supposed to stay at home but then mum was out in the evening asking mi to settled my own dinner.. then chinnyi called to ask me wanna go play pool so after a few rounds of talk here and there.. off we went to orchard to meet weiqi and friend then we went to cine to play pool.. OMG EVERYONE.. GUESS WHO I SAW THERE... ken yang... i was like wad was a person like him there.. lol.. shocked but i ignored and pretended nv saw him..hahahaha! chinn yi was suggesting we go for a neoprint shot and we decided to play team.. me and weiqi, chinnyi and friend.. grp that lost will have to pay for the neo.. and yup.. my team lost... saded.. then after that went BK for dinner.. then headed to heereen for neo.. guess who i saw this time...? mammoth! hahahaha.. they jus finished work and i happened to pass by them.. took the neo.. have quite a lot of laughters.. mi, the last time i took pri sch or sec 1? qi, nv took before.. chinnyi, recently jus started.. so lots of lame stuff.. then was supposed to picked boss and asked him wanna go play mahjong but he called to say he not interested.. and qi was supposed to meet him din and pei us took mrt back to boonlay and then he took bus back to woodlands.. silly rights? could have alight at JE..

ok.. thats all i have for my weekends... to chinnyi! omg...! u starting school tml! sad... wahahhahaha! =P

please just let me emo for the post that i am going to type..

haix.. gaining a post wasn't easy at all..
(1) people complain about how the com. runs the club
- but do they know that all of us are the first time doing it?
- normally the new com. will have advices or experiences from the ex-com. but they never seen the ex-com. they are 10 times worse and have never taught us anything.
- when we do training, feedbacks not enough game times. when we give games time during holiday, feedbacks too slack and it is not called TRAINING.

(2) people talk about the internal conflict that we have..
- who in this world will ever like conflicts? not us i know.
- but people just don't know the situation we are in.
- the trouble that some people creates for us in the dark that you all would never know.
- we tried to control but things are not going our way.

(3) we ourselves, the committee
- we admit we are not the most perfect grp of people u have seen but we are trying.
- imagine things are just thrown in to your face and expectations from your advisor are always adding to your load.
- our attitudes are not good i admit but have you thought the attitudes that you all have shown sometimes?
- training was to start at 6pm but how many are really punctual or self discipline when we really conduct training?
- constantly asking for feedbacks but everyone just keep it to themselves when asked, how many really do speak up at the point of time?
- when all asked for a camp, we have one prepared for you. the amts of forms, meetings and planning and even staying 2 days earlier than the camp ourselves, going through what all will be going through, making sure every single thing won't cause harm to all. have any one really appreciate it. be it a pat on the back just to say thankyou for the camp. a simple phrase that would really feel that everything is worth the effort that we put in?



we are not perfect.. everybody make mistakes because they learn from it.. but we tried our best and sometimes things are not in our hands to control.. things on the outside is that we have the authority to do stuffs.. but have one that is not inside really think about it that actually a particular group keeps stepping over our heads? when we asked to gather at the grandstand, can i know how long it takes for all to move over? do all understand that kind of feelings? and when we commented or raise our voice, we are tagged with the name RUDE, ABUSING AUTHORITY OR DISRESPECT.. it's hard, it's stressful, it's all that people do not see...


all i asked from humans is, please don't always look things in your own perspectives.. think about urself being in that person's shoes.. we will continue trying and trying.. cause nobody is perfect.. when people don't appreciate, i guessed this is just human instinct.. coz seriously, i can't do anything as people do not really know the insides of things.. we just have to swallow everythings that comes in our way.. maybe i am just trying to find excuses to cover our mistakes but i guessed this is the way i feel about this incident ba.. yupp! that's all..

迷宮 - 愛情魔發師 電視原聲帶

究竟你想什麼 但眼淚騙不了我
如果是命定戀人 為何還要對我 如此這樣殘忍
記得你曾說過 有個愛情迷宮
只要我們能夠碰頭 就能天長地久
如果真的愛我 就別管怎麼傳說
讓自尊它無情捉弄 關什麼永恆不永恆

我不要自己一個人 去面對未知的迷宮
眼看著幸福就在前頭 卻無法到手
不要自己一個人 無助的盲目去摸索
愛你 我像個小偷(我可以裝做不懂 你不愛我)

終於有 了選擇 我不是 你的晴空
你的心 不愛我 只能繼續 委屈 做她的替代品

this morning again went back to blss for training in the morning... lolx.. jus to let u all know i have grown a bit darker than before due to the training at blss... so after training i went home to wash up before heading to bugis with van and xiu.. yeah.. finally got my new bag.. still aint use to the bag but i guess i jus have to somemore... quite a two in one use of bag.. and i like it at the first sight.. after went home and met mom at jurong point to have dinner before going home...

tml tough day it is going to be.. morning will be going back blss for training.. then meet van van shu shu and maybe xiu for lunch then head to np for training also... hope i realli slim down with all these exercise.. =PP shu shu all ur fault.. who ask u say me so much at tues... see later i break down or wad u better feel guilty...

2nd september...

hohoho... it is our president mr siew fu kang's birthday.. so off we went to balcony for chillout and celebration!!