as mentioned earlier i was supposed to visit the dentist but it turns out that it wasnt open on that sunday.. saded.. stayed home the whole day to rest... the last day of this month.. all i can say it is full of ups and downs.. hope tml onwards everything would be better.. =)

*kristen & us with her small piece of bday cake!*

*BLEHX =P*

*Smiles =)*

2 more hours till my phone is usable! and tml morning bro and me is going for our annual dentist visit and get some advices on getting braces! am considering but not confirmed yet..

monday is children's day and my presents are all ready! hope teacher YL is feeling better..

what a day at work today.. firstly we are lacked of teachers and the workplace political issues got worse today.. normally the toddlers class will have 3 teachers.. but due to one falling sick and the seriously lack of staffs.. yup.. there is only 2 teachers today.. me and teacher YL for the toddlers today.. normally we are also very busy when we have 3 teachers.. and making it worse today is jus the two of us..

so being in the same bay with the playgrp(PG) class.. teacher YL sort of asked help from teacher Ho in PG.. the Toddlers were seperated with 9 of them outside with my having water play.. and the next moment i know.. auntie came out telling me that teacher H from PG too is quarrellin inside with teacher YL and wad makes it worse is that parent of a child is right there inside..

haix.. lets just not go in to very detailed.. the ending is that teacher YL was sent home becoz she is tearing and teacher H came back to the classroom after the talk with the principal looking like she have won something....

seriously i hate all this..

1st: to me teacher YL is already 55 and it is not easy for her at that age to handle 14 two years old children physically and mentally.. despite me being so young.. i still get aches sometimes after a hard day work! let alone saying her..

2nd: it is clearly obvious that teacher YL is well like by the children... fellow ECH mates.. u know children and understand that.. if a teacher is not committed and truely cares for the children they could sense it.. so i strongly believes that she is passionate about the job..

3rd: given her age, she could jolly well asked to handle an older age group of children.. or she could even retired.. by staying on.. it means alot..

4th: she only take leaves necessary unlike the other 3 teachers who have a high frequency of MC rates there in the same bay! which makes me even madder as she take resposibilities in her work! and still people is not happy...

5th: working with her for more than 1 month now i dun find any problems with her! what the fuck is wrong with you people!

6th: shouldnt fellow teachers who are working in the same bay should help one another especially when there is a shortage of staffs! why must one be so calculative!?

7th: teacher H who just joined us for two months is leaving already! why must u create troubles when u are already resigning! gosh!

8th: and being a childcare teacher, flexibilities is important! whats wrong with teacher YL not following the schdules at times and somemore she is not wasting those times.. she is doing something constructive with the children like painting and water & sand play! gosh! and u all just have to complain about it..

9th: calling the principal in for a talk when teacher YL is not around.. and telling me u are giving feedbacks.. hallo! i am not deaf! what is heard is all of u are targeting at her.. and it doesnt sound like a friendly feedbacks to me.. it was more of a complaining session!


haix.. i dunno.. i still have a lot to comments on that but i know this is getting no where and i know that i would be leaving in the next two weeks time.. i just kinda pity teacher YL.. and seriously i believe not only me who is feeling for teacher YL.. right the other teachers!?
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anyway ended work at 630pm and headed to HV to meet up with xiu, van, cwystal, kristen & russ for dinner and chillout at 8pm... we went to breko's around 11pm cwystal and russ left.. and before that kristen had left too.. so left the 3 of us.. and can u believed it.. we stayed there till 230am... reached home at 3 am.. well shall post the pictures up after i received them..

alrights.. i slept like a pig really like one.. went to bed at 10pm.. tot i would wake up a little while later and i really did but was feeling soooo slpy so i jus woke up for that 1 min to switch off the com and went back to bed and i only woke up this morning at 1230pm.. wao! partly due to the nice cooling weather in the morning i guess.. yup.. anyway headed down for training and reached at 5.15pm.. met up with enen and slacked at the snack bar for a while joking with the uncle.. then the raining din stop so me and enen decided to play pingpong.. what can i say.. lolx.. in the same hall with eye candy becoz he is having training and he helped us to hang up the net to block the balls.. lolx.. shy.. anyway great view throughout the game.. left at 7pm.. becoz the rain jus seemed to get heavier.. went clementi to have dinner and home-d..

tml am working full shift from 830am to 630pm.. then meeting the peeps at 8pm at holland to chill out.. hope everything goes smoothly...

replies to taggy:
Vjm: i hope your lappy gets well soon then u can start blogging again! =)

Chinn: sorry.. couldn't join u all as i said the other time i cant take off last minute after saying i would work coz i dun wan to be like the other teachers who did that.. it is irresponsible.. =)

En: yup.. =)

Xiu: see you tml! cant wait for the weekends to come!

was supposed to work from 12pm to 5pm.. but apparently the timing change once again so i reported at 930am and only ending work at 630pm.. but it was a happy day... i have lotsa fun toking with eye candy online.. lol.. it was really funny because everytime we see each other in school we are still like oh so shy and yet we could still tok to each other so freely online.. and maybe all thanks to the people around us ehs to make us so shy.. lolx.. hehehex.. happy =)

asked about my pay and principal said she will help me to call up the HR department and ask.. maybe i will get two months pay at one go next month.. but i hope it will come earlier..


anyway.. here's a song i would like to dedicate to a good friend who i believed i have already lost him.. yup.. it was a treasured friendship and it was really sad having to see it end up this way...

Rascal Flatts - What Hurts the Most Lyrics
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again
I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

alrights.. woke up today feeling better and wanted to go for a swim since last week.. so yup.. headed to alumni pool for a swim about 45 mins before ange came to join me for a while... so off to shower.. headed to snack bar for a bite and off to training... as usual we have full of laughters whenever gin min is around and i really luff till stomach cramps...lolx.. anyway left early again today.. went to jurong point night market and grab gifts for my little ones for the upcoming children's day! hahahha.. yup... on the way home i saw chinn yi.. such a coincidence..

tml working from 12-5pm... and yes.. my pay is still not in... gotta go office and ask for it tml.. hope it arrived before school reopens.. coz i realli wan to change phone!

ytd was spent sleeping almost half the day becoz i woke up with a freaking headache making me feverish and decided to do some self medicate by popping a couple of painkillers and went back to bed.. but till now it din seemed to be getting any better as the headache came back and the whole day today i felt bloated and the feeling of puking is already going to overpower me... trying to force myself to drink water and i wonder if i would be well to report to work tml.. the weather is kinda sucky as well..

anyway it has been 10 days since i last spoke to my mum.. yup.. after that incident.. oh well.. wad can i say..

i hate to be sick...... or should i say i might feel more better if i know whats up with my body..

單身潛逃 - 戴佩妮

我沒有你想像中那麼堅強
我只是擅長用微笑去偽裝
不是嗎

我沒有你形容的那麼勇敢
我偶爾也會慌

我也和你一樣　曾經年少輕狂
受了一點傷
我們都是一樣　相信永遠不遠
但堅持卻有點難

就讓記憶中的愛慢慢燒
燒痛了我們就逃
帶著現實的銬
摺疊我剩餘的微笑
通往沒有你的軌道
就讓記憶中的你慢慢老
老去了誰也得不到
帶著我的祈禱
摺疊我累積的問號
開始一次的單身潛逃

was really tired the previous night so i slept quite soundly only to wake up at 9.15am and saw that teacher wu had actualli msg me to ask if i could report for work at 930am which initially i was to be there at 12pm.. well.. apparently a teacher was on leave again and it was a last min notice.. so i told that i couldnt possibily made it at 930am but 10am was fine.. and gotta work extra overtime for one hour... and i have yet to get my pay.. it is freaking late.. they told me that i would get it on 10th to 14th.. if they are late it will be on the 17th! but apparently.. till now it is not transferred to my account yet..

Happy Birthday to Kirsten! shall have a celebration with ya real soon ok! hope you had enjoyed your day!

Sunday have been a day to rot and rest at home..

Monday worked full day today from 9am to 6pm.. kinda tired coz din really slept well the previous night.. oh well.. i survived through it.. though i got home have a severe headache..

Tuesday training as usual but no mood to play so decided to left really early becoz i reached home at 950pm.. thats super early.. yuppp..

it is a saturday! time to hit da beach.. yup... have lotsa fun today and made new friends.. "alex", tony and eugene.. lolx.. and i know all of u have a hell lotsa fun suaning me and eugene.. thanks! ok.. the sun wasnt freaking hot but i got a very bad sunburn.. anyway stayed till 5pm.. shower and yes today we showered inside the cubicle and not open shower! horray! lolx.. had long john silver.. anyway went in to NUM today and saw this particular brown slippers and it could said to be love at first sight! wanna get it but pay isnt in yet.. yup.. so still considering.. hehex.. then went town becoz they wanna do some shopping.. after that walked around and time to head home...

today worked full day.. 9-630pm.. quite a busy day as there is teachers meeting and i gotta cross over 2 classes.. anyway had fun.. because the my two years old children were so adorable today when they are given scarf to play with! ahhahah... initially din dare to snap photos of them.. but after looking at one of the teachers did.. i immediately took out my phone! hehehex...

seriously what the fuck is wrong with you! what's wrong having ur son receiving a government letter and you wanna make a big fuss over it! hallo! wake up! ur son is a officer! isnt it very common for him to receive such letters.. you jus have to make it a big whoo ha! dun you? when i already tell u it is common!

cant i who is warm blooded have my bad days too! you cant just be more understanding couldnt you! especially when it concern your PRECIOUS SON! you jus have to slam that door so hard that you make sure the whole neighbourhood could hear you huh!?

I AM FUCKING PISSED RIGHT NOW!

Matchbox Twenty - Unwell

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me that I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for somethingHold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown and I don't know why

Well I'm not crazy
I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see a different side of me
I'm not crazy
I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me and how I used to be

Me
Talking to myself in public and dodging glances on the train
And I know
I know they've all been talking bout me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking somehow I've lost my mind

Well I'm not crazy
I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see a different side of me
I'm not crazy
I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me and how I used to be

I've been talkin in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah
They're taking me away

Well I'm not crazy
I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see a different side of me
I'm not crazy
I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me and how I used to be

Yeah
How I used to be
How I used to be
Yeah
Well I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
(A little unwell)
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell

a day full of hugs and kisses! =)

went to work in the morning as usual.. but was with the playgrp and today both the main teachers are on leave.. so is me and teacher julia.. looking after them.. the day went by not too bad..

i have alot of hugs and kisses from my dearies of the 18mths babies.. hehehex..

firstly, it was shannon.. who loves playing with me everytime and will practically give me a kiss everytime.. so this is common..

secondly, this is a kiss that truely surprises me.. our dear big boss of the toddlers.. ryan.. when i was leaving for the day.. said byebye to me.. and he is the only 18mths toddler who could called out "teacher yahmei" perfectly.. yup.. so after he said goodbye.. i decided to ask for a kiss.. squating down i move my cheek forward.. but then he come to the front and gave me a kiss right on my lips! hahahahx.. such a sweet little boy aint he! =) truely brighten up my day..

thirdly, after zhi lin saw wad ryan did, she ran forward and hugged me and planted another kiss on my lips.. hahahaha..

fourthly, before jia xuan left for the day, she said goodbye by blowing kisses to me..

gosh..! children are simple.. if you truely put heart in to loving them.. they shall love u back unconditionally.. and today i recieved the fruit of my hardwork through these weeks.. gaining the trust and love of my dear toddlers.. =)

long time since i blogged.. anyway.. nothing much have been going on.. still the same.. work, VB, slp and catching up movies on the net.. no sentosa trips these few weeks as everyone is busy.. so yup.. hope to go down soon...

anyway.. met ching guan shu shu today to catch the movie.. Ratatouille.. lol.. i am so honoured to watch movie with him as he keep saying this is the first time after so long he watched a movie and is with me.. YAH I AM HONOURED..! AND AND.. we are supposed to meet at 2pm i wondered which clever one reached only at 2.40pm.. so clever! practically made me wait for him! anyway he was to pass me his lappy for format.. but i realise that his lappy would not be solved by simple reformatting.. so i cant help! kindly any kind souls with have quite a knowledge about lappy.. contact me!

life been kinda boring as it revolves around the work, VB, sleep and eat.. the cycle just goes on and on like this.. work are getting more heavier and teachers are beginning to relay on me more since now i am much more familiar with the work.. and because of that i felt more tired.. i dunno why but jus couldnt life my spirits up.. am feeling kinda emo right now and i dun even know why.. maybe becoz i am too tired.. but i just couldnt get to slp.. i wonder when was the last time i slept through the night peacefully without waking up 3 or 4 times in between or having a peaceful sleep without any dreams at all.. it jus kinda sucks you know..

it's happy teachers day! hehehex.. went out for lunch with van, xiu, kristen and kang.. we went raffles for thai food and it was good and cheap... hehehex.. then after that we went raffles city... went body shop and got my white musk and another one for kang as his bday present.. then walked around and we spotted sasa and yanns.. after walking around and digesting we decided to go home...