well.. another week is coming to an end.. attachment are still sucky as ever.. the first conducted integrated thematic lesson dint go as smooth as i tot would be.. my children are jus too weak in their education.. all becoz they have a bad start in the playgrp.. haix.. lots of politics.. shant mentioned much... ended attachment quite late today... 6.15pm before i leave the centre..

reached home.. received a call.. collecting my ndp tickets.. so yup.. andy picked me up at home.. passed me the tickets and headed off to JP... upon reaching there we decided to catch a movie, transformer at 8.50pm... bought tickets and off for dinner.. he wanted to treat me something good as he still own me a gd bday celebration.. but today is weekend.. and every restaurants needs queuing.. we gave up and off to Mos burger... lolx..

nice show.. good graphics.. super cool.. but we are so funny.. running out of the cinema.. when the show is near end maybe? hahahaha.. coz he gotta reach camp before 2359.. first time watching a movie and rushing through it like mad.. funny experiences..

great night out with you.. thanks for trying to make up for the bday celebration you owned me and i know you have a reason for missing it the other time.. so sry if i have caused you any trouble.. thanks once again for the nightout.. =)

tagboard replies:
to all.. thanks for the encouragement.. i guess this is jus a passing stage for all the stress that is adding on... yup.. and some feelings that have been bothering me.. dont wry am fine... loves all of you... muacks! =)

a post for me to be emo maybe? let's jus start with ytd.. andy kor took leave off his NS and came down for VB.. lots of fun and laughter whenever he is ard.... yup.. so he sent me, yao, en and vonn home after that.. lots of updates from him and from me to him.. all the best to ya bro.. you'll be fine after national day.. though i doubt u will read this.. lolx..

continued from here will be a post for me to emo..
relationships are always so special and there is no explaination to why it happens.. or how 2 or more person just 'click' with each other.. there are many forms of relationships.. love, friends & family.. but what i wanna focus is on friendship...

it's a miracle how everything begins.. human of different characteristics and looks are placed together in an environment.. and becoz they belong to the same environment.. human beings who have that certain attraction towards each other comes together to be friends.. i know i always say this.. it takes two hands to keep a relationship going.. and if you are gonna be calculative on how much each person puts in to maintain, it becomes a problem..

i dare say i'm not a good friend.. i am introvert.. i neglected my friends at times.. and i do not know how to treasure them.. maybe i have been taking everyone for granted.. which is a very bad thing to have as a human being... i dont show enough care and concern to keep friends at my side.. thats the reason why i kept losing one after another.. or drift away...

jus have this strong feelings that i'm not longer as close to you all as compared to the past.. that feeling is so strong that it kinda makes me feel lonely.. different environment, attachments that took up everything.. let this be all the excuses for now.. though deep down inside me i know clearly.. i am the one who is not putting in the effort.. how ironic i can be....


attachment couldnt be any more stressful when knowing that phillip koh is my supervisor.. being one of our lecturer in first yr... all the things he told us.. i knew how high expectation he has towards supervision.. what adds to my stress is that i really couldnt cope with my children.. after the first lesson i conducted today.. they are so weak in their lanuguages.. and adding all to everything? my mentor told me phillip nearly failed a girl last year.. and having that girl do a second supervision... am so tired...

why isit that all people could think is ECH teachers going to attachment is only playing with the children? if really thats the case.. how i wish it is the truth.. but please.. if you are that ignorant.. shut ur mouth.. coz i'm tired of the constant explaining to people that it isnt so easy you think it is.... and if you think thats all we are doing.. come and have a try..

met with ron, sara, yishi and siew chin to revenue there for sushi buffet.. bloated.. lolx.. headed to far east to do some shopping.. bought a top.. and nuthing much... we are jus a grp of early childhood teachers sitting together gossiping about each other centres... lolx... really ahs we all.. jus cant stop saying about the attachment experiences.. reached home at 10pm plus.. rested..

went back childcare to do make up attachment for july.. due to having tutorials on fridays.. so yupp.. first time after a week when going back the children behaved as though they have not seen me for more than a year.. yelling and shouting.. keep coming to tok to me.. met my english teacher today for the first time... teacher devi is fun... not as worse as i thought to be.. yup.. nice teacher... forgot that there is training today... so only release from work at 530pm.. lucky i stayed near.. changed and rush down for training... lots of fun though i wasnt playing any matches.. today i have the 'feel' with the ball.. so had nice and fun exciting volleying with lesbian... tried the lime sundae... erm... dunno how to describe.. but din finished it.. jokes is always never ending with lesbian... bathe, blow, balls.. thanks ah...

*A huge bottle of vodka i asked my mom to get*

*A new pair of shoes*


*A large NIGHTMARE towel*

*A large NIGHTMARE towel 2*


*A real NIGHTMARE sling bag from Disneyland*

*Another NIGHTMARE shoulder bag*


*Soft toys! special request from dad to ask mom get it*


*A NIGHTMARE dustbin! first time seeing it for me*

*top left - stamp chop, keychain where the mouth will juggle when pull string, stickers, another keychain same to the one i using now but diff facial expression!*

*left - keychain, right- a keychain mirror!*

hehehex.. thanks alot to mom and dad.. they din get much themselves but i know they enjoyed the trip by the looks of their happy faces.. and really love them lots for going through the effort in helping me seeking for those items and not forgetting me during their whole trip.. truely deeply touched and felt loved..

MOM! DAD! I LOVE YOU ALL!

ok.. officially back from camp... now shall do some updates...

11th june = day -1
woke up early in the morning and took bus to school.. met lesbian partner at 10am then head to bugis for praying.. got some amulets for the peeps.. shop for some necessities and headed to concourse to get the lightsticks... back to school at 2pm... met up with the rest of the committee.. then we plan what we need to get and off we go... by the time we went back.. it was time for the helpers to book in too.. nthing much done that day... had briefing on roughly the programs.. and we went for a walk for the nightwalk route.... played murderer.. all time favourite game in our camp.. lights out at 3am?

12th june = day 0
woke up in the morning.. had breakfast at canteen two.. saw "god-ma" and she treated us to some cakes.. but i still like my eggs and toast.. hehehe... went back room.. get started on the dummy and the sewing of costume for lady in white... i spent almost 2 hours on one lady in white dress.. omg.. then bok and yao came back with some error on the printing of our shirts.. so me and enen gotta make our way down to hand the shirts over... got back in sch at 6 plus.. had another briefing to settle the orchard run and the nightwalk.. by 8pm.. freshies booked in.. we had ice-breaking games... lotsa fun with all the whacko... violent bunch of people... lol.. lights out at 1am.. but freshies jus didnt want to slp... and some of them even went out of the bunk.. no comments.. din really care but lesbian partner was up waiting some of them to be back...

13th june = day 1
woke up in the morning.. 8am... wash up and had our heavy brkfast.. last quick briefing before all the helpers head out to orchard.. all station masters reported to their station and there we waited for ages for the freshies to arrived.. lolx.. fell aslp in my waiting area.. while xiu was reading her magazine.. lolx.. then she gotta leave at 430pm to school to collect the dinner.. so by then lesbian partner was there already to accompany me.. poor her, yao and joanne.. practically walked the whole orchard for dunno how many rounds.. then the whole race ended at 5pm.. me and en went back to queensway to retrive our shirts... headed back school.. had dinner.. let them have their skit discussion and then 10pm.. off we go for the helpers.. last checking for the nightwalk route... then each of us to our station.. i have quack, mel and ginmin along at blk 46.. me and quack was suppose to throw the dummy down after the freshies stepped in.. and let me tell u.. the whole stairs is in total darkness.. after a few pairs din got shocked by our dummy.. me and quack, ginmin and mel decided that we should abondon that and headed to do our own scaring... i had fun hiding alone behind the door near the lift while mel is outside.. and i did really freak a guy out.. hahaha.. it was so much fun.. by then everything ended at 5am... so went back showered.. lights off.. 6 am...

14th june = day 2
we cancel the morning games stations as every one needed slp.. due to the overexhausting activities previously.. so woke up at 12pm to have lunch... it was pool games but most of the girls campers din brought their swim suits.. so... yup.. sadly that was cancelled too.. kinda depressing you know.. yup.. nvm.. so they went out to the courts and have ball games.. what did i do? in my room slping.. lol.. yup.. and then we were preparing for our skit too.. kinda relac day... due to the cancelation of the games.. but the day warm up with fun when skit performance and the bidding begans.. lotsa laughter and fun looking at all of us with the silly things we did.. and the bidding.. so many ups and downs.. and dear lesbian felt so bad to make 2 guys of different teams sang love songs to her.. but after that she had fun filling up dee's leg with words.. whole leg was covered with markers.. lol.. and that night i got to know the most amusing game in the world... "speed" i practically laugh like mad.. i guess onli vonn, gary, en and joe would know... hahahhahaha....! lights off at dunno what time.. after 3 am i definitely know... and i know the others played games with the freshies till early in the morning at 8am.. lolx..

15 june = day 3
woke up at 10am... clear up the place.. packed everything in to the clubhouse.. and yea.. changed and off for photo taking... ended everything at 1pm... camp offically closed.. the rest of the helpers and us went back for somemore rounds of murderers.. went for lunch at 2plus at KAP.. then at 4pm.. went back school.. set up the indoors.. played awhile.. me, en, yao, bok, gary, vonn, huat, leen.. stayed back to help augus for his event.. the local team vs the international khakis.. nice matches.. totally awsome... lolx.. ended at 9pm.. shared a cab with yao home... yup... after i reached home it just din felt immediately tired.. so only hit the sack when it was after 12am...


overall.. this might be the last camp that i have.. study life is ending and i would miss it.. i will be back i hope.. next year to attend the volleyball camp as a alumni.. i really hope.. providing they want be back too.. lolx... had lots of fun.. i hope everyone is more bonded and the camp have left everyone with wonderful memories.. =)

thankyou everyone who attended the camp.. thankyou the helpers for all the assistance... thankyou Xiu for coming back specially to make all those nice milos... thankyou yao and en for the hardwork you have put in for the camp.. thankyou my fellow committee members for being there... a big THANKYOU ! =)

unforgettable as the days are over and memories are left behind.. =)

-photos will be up soon provided i get them... lolx.. so kindly those who have the pictures please have them transfer to me! =P

friday.. mom and dad set off early in the morning to changi airport... they are going to shanghai and hongkong for a period of 10days with relatives.. this is the first time they are away so soooo long... yupp... miss them...

last day of attachment for the week... already lost my voice... hurt my throat terribly... really felt a sense of relieve when the clock struck 5pm.. and off i go... made a new friend in the centre... same age as me.. but she is from RTRC... she's currently working there and on a course in RTRC.. yup.. nice girl.. =)

din rest the moment i reached home.. change in to something comfortable and off i go to school for project discussion... yes... wad a day... discussion ended... reached home at 9pm... do some research and hit the sack...

today..... aint feeling well.. my throat got worse and blood is dripping out from my nose a little when i sneeze out.. think i scratch the inner wall of my throat and thus bleeding inside... not a good sign indeed... parents not ard.. the medicine at home has ran out... feverish... din tell bro.. coz he wun know wad to do too... but he's being nice staying at home today... camp is on monday... i really hope i get well tml... i wouldnt want to miss it.. it's the last one... -prays

din managed to blog ytd coz i was really deadbeat and was doing my newsletter in the night..

starting with day 3 of work first...
did some reading with the children again... do the worksheets on the letter, L and S.. it was chaos as children are running around and even drawing on the tables and floor.. so kinda mad at them too as nobody wanna own up.. typical.. first time bathing the children too... not a bad experience.. they are cute.. but devils at the same time.. so yup...

4th day of work...
morning.. read them a book on "the listening walk".. a task left behind by the english teachers.. then again we did the letter L and S using dough... practically the Nursery are still unable to do writing.. so yup.. all hands on... was helping the chinese teacher to catch the run away grasshoppers.. the children also went out grp by grp to collect snail.. this is for their chinese curriculum.. bath them today again... i prefer bathing them than outside monitoring them... hehex.. so yup.. read a 2 books on thomas the train to a small grp of children before their nap time..

it's the fourth day and i can feel the tiredness gathering day by day... this week is jus the orientation week.. imagine when i come back after 2 weeks.. i gotta start teaching.. horrible horrible... and teacher devi is not ard this week thats why the children are more misbehaved... i hope once teacher devi is back, they will stay more organized...

reached home opened mailbox and there it is.. pizzahut's flyer... since everyone is gonna be home for dinner today.. so yup... ordered... now waiting for the rest to come home... mom and dad is leaving singapore for 10 days tml on a holiday with relatives to shanghai and hongkong again.. so yup... while they are away.. i'm also gonna have camp on monday till friday.. so it's home alone for bro... good luck bro!

tml is last day of the week.. but after attachment at 5pm.. gotta rush to school for project discussion.. which clever one set a project in the middle of student's attachment... go and guess ba...

2nd day of attachment... nth much going on too... my mentor is a very nice teacher... she's young and fun going... had a little chat with the chinese class teacher today too.. know more about her... kinda pissed off with the children today as they are really misbehaving almost every min... and i am down with flu... so you can imagine.. having to be sick and had to take care of the children... yup... assist in bath time today... every thing is in chao... get to memorise some children name.. i hoped by thursday all names will be memorise... yup.. tats all for today... going to bed and rest...

ok! today marks the first day as a full time preschool teacher... got up at 8am.. ate brkfast and drag my time... only to step out of my house at 9.20am.. you all must be thinking.. siao ah! 930am report centre u step out the house at 9.20am! nope... the centre is just the next block from mine and i only took 5 mins to reach... i guess the others is so gonna bash me up...

ok.. stepped in... introduced myself to the chinese teacher, yu lao shi.. btw.. actual timing to go childcare is 9am.. but i reported at 930am becoz my mentor told me so.. and she is on leave right on my first day so i felt kinda stranded.. not only that.. the english teacher of my nursery class is also on leave this whole week.. so yupp... ok.. first thing first.. my children are CUTE! that's what motivate me to see them daily now.. but they are soooooooo talkative... couldnt take it man.... and they couldnt really speak clearly.. so it's kinda tough for me... worried worried.. first time taking the 3-4 years old can!

so yup.. first job.. help to sharpen the children's colour pencils.. then moved to outdoor... come back bath... had lunch... told them a story on Shapes... and off they prepared for nap.. so they had nap at 130pm.. i went home for lunch... got back the centre at 230pm.. they are still slping.. so i jus sat there doing my lessons planning... till they woke up at 4pm.. tea time... played plasticine... then off to their corners waiting to go home... that's how i spent the day... the reason why it is so slack is becoz it is the june holiday! and there is no curriculum to carry on.. so yup.. am SLACK!

gonna see mentor for tml... hope no more that slack...

Taggies:

Xiu: lolx... yes yes! i will try to be more careful in the dark next time! =) see you during camp!

Vjm: lolx.. kinda lost myself for that moment... becareful ya if there the road is prone to trips too.. dun wan you to be like me! =P

Yishi: lolx.. yah lo.. who ask us to be classmates.. good luck for ur attachment too!! shall see u on friday for project.. then we can update each other more! =)

chinn: lolx.. am fine already... high tolerance to pain wors... will try to update on my attachment as much as i can.. hope to post pics too... =)

nth much interesting happened today... jus camp home to relax and enjoy myself before the harsh reality sets in tml.. yep.. attachment starting tml... mentor msg me in the morning said that she would be on leave.. so i would have to be alone all by myself... from 930am to 530pm... welcomex to the full time working life man~ yup.. so all the best to everyone who is starting tml and all the best to mah self...

LOL... went IMM with lesbian partner for dinner and shopping for items before attachment begins... was having fun and lots of laughter on the bus driver... then the unexpected thing happened.. we were walking to over bus stop.. and we were toking.. then suddenly.. "POOF" i'm gone! i fell in to the drain.. lolx.. had a loud cry 'WAH' and people from the opposite road was looking back shocked and they too cried out.. the whole incident was so freaking funny that i couldnt stop laughing... for once i think ppl might think that i'm crazy becoz as a girl normally one would cry.. and somemore am bleeding dunno like wad.. so yup.. HAHAHHAHAHA..!

你要的不是我 - 林俊傑

怎麼能忘　時間多長
你快樂嗎　想代替你回答
你知道嗎　走了好遠我才能去面對
這份牽掛　沉默傷悲

你要的不是我　心碎的失去輪廓
曾經給你的感動　只是情緒的波動
能給的不是我　放任你沉溺自由
掩飾不了我的笨拙　就連說話都會顫抖
我被遺忘在　你遺忘的　角落

Happy holidays to all.. finally managed to slp late today after so long... yup... left house in the evening and headed to changi airport... met xiu, sasa on the way there... reached, met up with cwy and russ.. headed to breeks whereby kristen and janice joined us and finally the leading lady VAN! hehehex.. yup.. she's leaving today for newcastle first.. have a farewell dinner with her before she comes back 54 days later... thanks Auntie for the dinner treat! thanks lots... yup.. then photo taking, waving good bye to van as she walked through the gates..


i'm gonna miss you lots girl.. not having around so long is gonna be the first time.. but i know you will be enjoying urself! remember to blog as often as u could so that we know that you are doing well.. loves! =D