sometimes i wonder.. showing care and concern to a friend isit necessary?? would they appreciatiate wad i am doing? isit only one-sided concern? guess i would be sooner or later numb by all these feelings.. would i turn into a cold blooded human one day? no one knows.. but i guess everyone is tired and sick of it somehow or someday.. i would not dare to hope for anything as the disappointment that follows would be greater and hurting to me than anyone could imagine.. i am a person would put friends in the first position as i believed that they are for a lifetime when the bond and foundation of the friendship is strong.. however i hope this friendship would remain going as it would really break everyone's heart if it ever jus collapse... sick and tired of it.. numb.. confused.. disapointment.. sadness.. another moment to cry and release my stress? maybe i will.. coz only crying would make a person smile once more...