a post for me to be emo maybe? let's jus start with ytd.. andy kor took leave off his NS and came down for VB.. lots of fun and laughter whenever he is ard.... yup.. so he sent me, yao, en and vonn home after that.. lots of updates from him and from me to him.. all the best to ya bro.. you'll be fine after national day.. though i doubt u will read this.. lolx..

continued from here will be a post for me to emo..
relationships are always so special and there is no explaination to why it happens.. or how 2 or more person just 'click' with each other.. there are many forms of relationships.. love, friends & family.. but what i wanna focus is on friendship...

it's a miracle how everything begins.. human of different characteristics and looks are placed together in an environment.. and becoz they belong to the same environment.. human beings who have that certain attraction towards each other comes together to be friends.. i know i always say this.. it takes two hands to keep a relationship going.. and if you are gonna be calculative on how much each person puts in to maintain, it becomes a problem..

i dare say i'm not a good friend.. i am introvert.. i neglected my friends at times.. and i do not know how to treasure them.. maybe i have been taking everyone for granted.. which is a very bad thing to have as a human being... i dont show enough care and concern to keep friends at my side.. thats the reason why i kept losing one after another.. or drift away...

jus have this strong feelings that i'm not longer as close to you all as compared to the past.. that feeling is so strong that it kinda makes me feel lonely.. different environment, attachments that took up everything.. let this be all the excuses for now.. though deep down inside me i know clearly.. i am the one who is not putting in the effort.. how ironic i can be....


attachment couldnt be any more stressful when knowing that phillip koh is my supervisor.. being one of our lecturer in first yr... all the things he told us.. i knew how high expectation he has towards supervision.. what adds to my stress is that i really couldnt cope with my children.. after the first lesson i conducted today.. they are so weak in their lanuguages.. and adding all to everything? my mentor told me phillip nearly failed a girl last year.. and having that girl do a second supervision... am so tired...

why isit that all people could think is ECH teachers going to attachment is only playing with the children? if really thats the case.. how i wish it is the truth.. but please.. if you are that ignorant.. shut ur mouth.. coz i'm tired of the constant explaining to people that it isnt so easy you think it is.... and if you think thats all we are doing.. come and have a try..